Stop Trying To Please.

September 25, 2013

I haven’t written in this blog for a few months now. I was afraid of getting behind on it, and I did. However, I felt very inspired to write something that happened at work today that opened my eyes to something I didn’t see before. So this was not at all planned. I am just writing down what comes to my mind while it is still fresh.  So here it goes:

I realize that I care too much. I go to work everyday striving to be my best and do my best. I strive to work hard and have a good work ethic. I care about what I do, which is a good thing. However, I also care about  how others see me. Can you relate to this?

We all desire to be liked. Teenagers will dress the way others might want them to be dressed because they will be noticed or maybe they will go to parties and start drinking, etc; therefore, liked. I was once that way. But now as an adult I still desire to be liked only in other ways. As of right now: my work ethic. I want you to be proud of me and see just how hard I work to please you. Just writing that down it makes me feel like a little kid trying to please her parents. The problem is though, no matter what I do or how hard I work, I cannot please anybody. I realized today that I have been striving to please the people around me who I work with more than I have been striving to please God in my work. I have often been worried that I would come across to someone in the wrong way and think back, “Did I say that right? Do they think something bad at me?” I mean come on! A person can go insane trying to keep up with appearances! Not mention, loosing one’s self. Pssh. I realized today it doesn’t matter how nice I am to the world or to those who do not believe in the One True God, they will still find something about me to make fun of and dislike. Thats it. I cannot please people period. I can go head over heels to be friendly to someone, but that person can turn around and make me feel like mush. This is something so simple, specially for someone who has been a Christian for 11 years. But I know I need to learn the same lessons repeatedly because my heart can often forget.

So yeah, I felt a little crummy today. So I asked God while looking down aisle six through the stock room window, ” God, teach me to stop trying to please others in what I do here.” And in that moment, God said to me, “Erin, in whatever you do, do it for the Lord and not for people.” Again, something soooo simple that you’d think I would have learned a long time ago. But here’s the thing: God doesn’t mind repeating His truth to me because He truly does want to help me in my struggles. Thats why He gave me His word. My heart could now see how all along my strong work ethic has been for the wrong reason. This world I can never please, because we are all sinners. Sinners will put down sinners. But God is perfect. Isn’t it better to please a perfect loving God who loves all I do for His name and glory? At least I won’t feel crummy at the end of a long work day right? And once I do to please my God first, I can then be a better co-worker, friend, example, influence, witness, to those around me who do not know Jesus.